Haven't blogged in a while...truth is, all that I am woman, hear me roar was
It's not like me to get all serious and stuff but life, well life just threw me right into it...there's no joking here. I have to be mature, responsible...I have to take control (pre-menopausal, you really think it's time?)! And, I will, of that I am certain. I've got an outstanding
I don't know if it was the gallon of wine I drank, alone, last night or just my sheer stubbornness but, I woke up today, surprisingly not hungover, but instead determined, focused and in control ... it lasted most of the day, with spurts of "what the hell" and "why me?" thrown in, but today, I knew, I'm going to survive!
I've been scared before, oh boy have I been scared..... first date, first kiss, first...... you get the gist... marriage, pregnancy, birth, TEENAGERS, Yikes! I've had (more than) my share of scared. But this is different and, although I will try, it's not something that can easily be put into words. There are moments; Strong moments where you believe nothing can bring you down. Chuck Norris moments. Don't mess with me
(the pic is a little crude but, you have to admit, soooo accurate!)
Then there are the weak, hard-to-breathe moments that sneak in there when you least expect them and consume you. You know, when you're all laid back, cozy, ready to relax..POW! that's when they creep up on you like those lace undies that shrunk in the wash. Those moments that make you realize you are just one little part of this great big world, the big puzzle, the universe. The "wedgie" moments! But after a few adjustments, the adrenaline kicks in, the hair grows on my chest (figuratively speaking) the fire burns in my belly (or is that the wings I ate a last night?!).....and I get through it.... I'm one of the important pieces of this puzzle and, without me, it's not complete! I've still got a lot of unfinished business here so, like it or not, I'm here to stay!! Bear
I've got dreams in hidden places
and extra smiles for when I'm blue.